Dream of Californiacation

And then comes the one guy that makes the rest look like complete losers!

Some food for thought

"If a man's mind becomes pure, his surrounding will also become pure" - Buddha

I've been blessed with such great friends in my life it's absolutely unbelievable. I've been blessed with such friends that help me see the good or bad in which others bring to me.
I've never been very patient and as such, I have taken some huge risks in my life out of my unwillingness to wait.
I like to call it one of my greatest assets and liabilities.
So I like to live every moment. I hate waking up at 4 in the afternoon only to realize that I've wasted a whole day.
Just imagine the possibilities of what you could of accomplished during that missed out time. Could be very little or could be life changing, you never know.
But most people don't like to be pushed, obviously and a lot get taken aback by my assertiveness to get exactly what I want at that time.
I guess a lot of people can say I jump into things whole heartedly. I'm extremely passionate with everything I do and the one thing I believe in and only want in life, is love.
I'm not saying just with a partner, I mean with my family and I love to make new friends and offer as much love as I can give, cause lord knows the world needs some more of it these days.
I've made some pretty crappy choices in my day, that I'm not proud of but nor do I regret making them because making them has helped me see who people really are, find out new things about myself and move forward to making more crappy spur of the moment choices that I eventually learn from too lol.

I've also been blessed with the gift of intuition lol. Not psychic abilities but more the fact that I can meet someone right off the bat and know if they have good intentions or bad; If they will help move me forward or walk me in the wrong direction. I've never been wrong to this day.
The annoying part is the temptation. Fighting against the thrill of people that might eventually bring me down. Trusting myself that they are not good for me and keeping myself from them or from thinking I could change their intentions.
My life is one adventurous movie if I do say so myself lol.
The tricky part now is knowing that I'm aware of such people and knowing that I'm aware that even with such temptation and anticipation at the time, those people will only lead me in the wrong direction, how do I motivate myself to completely avoid what I know is bad?
Some of that bad has led me to unthinkable possibilities, and some has led me to spending weeks lying in bed feeling sorry for myself.

This is when I go back to saying how blessed I am for the friends I have. 2 of them in fact are the ones that understand me the most and can really say every word out of my thoughts without me having to open my mouth once. Without them I might be still trapped in my own thoughts wondering if what has happened to me is actually real or if how I interpret things actually make sense.

I know my thoughts are scattered but who ever said I needed to make a point in my own journal?

I know me. My family knows me. My 2 soul sisters know me. I will continue to love whoever lets me love them. You can judge me all I want even being some of my oldest friends, as old doesn't mean best. Doesn't mean you understand my soul or have even tryed to understand how I see things or the reasons I do what I do. Only then will you be a pure friend and learn to let the judgements go. Only then will you be the best.

So, how do you really wash away all the Voldermorts and Cruella Devills in your life?
Is it wrong to keep them in hopes that they will learn how to love? Or do u Avada Kadavra them in case they decide to make fur coats out of your puppies?
hahaha

What will save u and your puppies in the end really?

xo

Dreams

LASttt night I had a dream that I was underwater, breathing fine, with 100 other people I know, and we were running from a storm that was going to cause a black hole that sucked us all in. The only way to survive was the strength of your own mind. Twice this black hole tried to kill me and both times I was the only one out of everyone that came up with a way to hold on to something and convince myself that my body wasn't weak and I had the strength to hold on.
This is my translation:
There have been plenty of people in this world who have been negative to me and have cut me down in the past and I finally don't let them anymore.
I have the strength now. A strength that I always had but was never too sure of and questioned too often.
I feel so free it's unbelievable.

<3

Never Look Back.

Never look back. But reach out a hand to help bring people forward.

I've learned alot in the past 2 years and the funny thing is the only thing I struggle with is people bringing up my past.
I have moments where I get totally overwhelmed and feel upset but then when I really think about it...theres nothing I can do.
I can't change my past and if people don't give you the time of day because of gossip and judgements and because their too ignorant to want to learn the truth...then really why the heck do I care?
I honestly don't need those people in my life and noone should have to be surrounded by people who treat you like that.

I'm very proud of myself because infact I learned a really good lesson yesterday. I've learnt it before but some lessons take a few tries to learn and hit you a little bit deeper each time.

Everyone has their own problems and I cannot rely on anyone but myself to help me through my own.
Sure I always have tons of friends and family for support, but of course, sometimes their not around, like yesterday, and I must find a way to deal with it on my own. And of course, I did.
I was upset for maybe a half an hour and then suddenly I was ok. I didn't need to talk to anyone, I didn't need to be around anyone, because i knew I would be alright.

 We get so caught up in our current situations and our problems when we forget that there are wayyyyy Bigger problems in the world. There have been people that have been abuducted and are still alive and doing well, raped, people who have been beatin up to the point where they can't breath and have recovered.
Everyone has problems...so what makes me any different?
IF people can go through all that and be alive and fine... then why can't I?

Life's too short to stress I tell ya.
I say this as a number one hypocrite because I am a stress maniac.
But I'm learning. How I reacted yesterday is proof.
Life's too short to be angrey with your family and not forgive.
It's too short to stay angrey at friends that you love dearly.
It's too short to not give people chances that you have feelings for.
It's too short to shut anyone out because your scared of the future.
It's too short to be angrey at all.

So seriously, go on and be happy!
I dare ya :p

XOXO

How to... become harmonized with the Universe.

SO. I have this day by day calendar with quotes revolving around the book 'The Secret' and every day i read one and immediately feel much more positive about my day.
The thing that I've realized over the last couple of days is that everyone has their own shit in their life. Everyone has something terrible that has happened to them in their past and has affected them in however way possible to help make them  become the person they are today. But, because of what we know from our past experiences, we judge our future, and we worry about the same thing happening again.
A friend said to me last night, "People are so afraid of the unknown that they waste their time worrying about it instead of just experiencing it".
That happens to be something I can completely relate to at this moment as I have been stuck upset about what might happen and who I might loose for some time now. I've been getting so worked up about something that hasn't even happened yet when I should be just loving what I have right now and living everyday not knowing what might happen. Who knows, maybe what I'm worrying about will never happen. Then I will have wasted my life instead of enjoying it and being happy with what I got.


The reason I'm bringing this up is because my 'Secret' quote of the day is sort of relevant to really waking up and becoming alive in the moment.
This is what it said, I hope it works for you as well as it did for me today xoxo <3

"Here is a simple, powerful process that you can do every day to bring yourself into positive harmony with the Universe and the law of attraction.


Sit down comfortably. Notice how you are feeling, and now relax your entire body. When you have relaxed your whole body, then relax it some more. Now relax it some more. And relax it some more! Repeat this deeper relaxing seven times, each time relaxing as much as you can. When you have finished, notice the dfference in how you are feeling, compared with how you felt when you began.


Now you are more in harmony with the Universe and the law of attraction!"


In other words...your alive!! Now go live your life!


xoxo

Work around your problems!

In the words of the great Elle Woods, "If the Fabric doesn't work with you, don't work with it"

Suspend your Disbelief.

So I lost track of what I said I was going to focus on.
Myself, that is.

So I'm not perfect. But I'm going at it again and again and I'm going to continue pushing myself to stay away from what distracts me until I have everything I want. I am not going to let anyone get in my way anymore and I'm not going to let any negativity bring me down.

I will suspend my disbelief.

Just watch me.

A new year, a new life.

Happy Anniversary blog!!!

It's officially been a year since I started blogging! YEppe!
Now for my new readers, I deleted my old blogs because I felt as if I was starting to go down a continuous path with every entry. Which, may have appealed to you gossip-wise but it wasn't necessarily helping me solve any of my problems any faster.
As much as writing has always made me feel better, I've decided whenever I have any big problems I'm going to write it in my own personal diary, so that if anything is mistaken like it has been from what I have previously written, it won't matter because nobody will read it but me.

With that said, I am so thrilled that 2009 is over! Of course years and days are just a man-made concept but it's nice to think that you can now start fresh and leave the past behind you. At least for me it is :P.

I decided to start off my fabulous year with some new years resolutions. I'm normally not a big believer in them, as so many people these days don't follow through in what they say they are going to do, but I've decided that I'm not gonna let anything stop me from fulfilling these goals.
What's life without something to look forward to?
Plus, I think the reason people never follow through with their goals is because they make them too unrealistic or long-term and that is what leads to procrastination and then they never get achieved.

So here are my six, very realistic, short-term goals for 2010:
1) Read one book a week. Normally I would say that's unrealistic to most people but I'm a fairly fast reader so it shouldn't be a problem.
2) Save $110 a week. Put 60 towards short-term savings (such as to go on a yearly holiday) and 50 towards longterm savings (retirement)
3) Go to the gym 3 times a week.
4) Do singing exercise's 15 minutes a day before practicing songs.
5) Get Primerica and drivers license.
6) Do one thing a day that makes me happy.

I know I've preached this before but if you haven't yet discovered the concepts of the secret, then that should be at least something you should look into giving a chance for 2010.

Personally, I find the movie more effective then the book but try whatever learning technique works best for you.

It has changed my life completely with it's simple obvious concepts of how to get everything and anything you have ever wanted. I think the only thing I haven't mastered in getting what I want so far is the perfect man! :P Or at least someone to learn to love at the moment.
Every guy wants to either be single or says their confused and want to figure out their problems these days. Same old excuses.
You only live once and I really don't understand what could stop someone from just taking a chance and live every moment. So what if it ends terrible? So what if your not meant to be? You live and learn and who knows what you could be missing out on if you don't take that chance!?

I think the most annoying thing about finding someone these days is the whole "He's just not that into you" concept. Well he hasn't texted me so he must not be that into me. Or I made the first move so who knows if he was even into me to begin with? Or my favourite, ' Even though we've talked about it, he hasn't made a move since so he must not be into me".
Why must everything be a game? Why can't everyone be given a chance and then a yes or no answer when it's done? It's so simple you either had a good time and want to see where it will go or you didn't.

ANYWAYS, going back to the secret. If your not a very positive person, like I use to be, and want to be shown a way to help yourself, then just give it a try. The worst that can happen is that it does nothing for you and you've wasted an hour of your very lonnnnng life.

If theres anything I learned from 2009 it's that the only one that can help you is yourself. If you want to be rich, then make it happen. If you want to be given a promotion, then make it happen. If you want straight A's, then make it happen.

Here's to an amazing year filled with dreams coming true!

xoxox