Today is the first day of the rest of our lives!

Chuck, Adam and lots of cash <3

Hey alll

Soo I don't know if you have all heard about the nude pictures of Rihanna that has mysteriously leaked onto the internet but for god sakes can people just leave her alone. There are suspicions that Chris brown did it, which even if he didn't reports have already confirmed that their from his computer, but even if he didn't do it and it was a family member or  a friend I doubt he wasn't telling them not to do it or would of cared even if he didn't know. 

Ok I suppose that is a lot to assume about a guy I don't even know but going by his violent behaviour I would not doubt it.

ok so not meaning to change the subject but I just saw a commercial about a movie called "Drag me to Hell" which is coming out on my birthday. HAHA quite ironic considering my ex-boyfriend likes to tell people that "dating my family" is like walking through hell. Ya that's right he dated my family. That's gotta say alot about the psyco he is, considering more then half of our relationship was spent at his house and in fights about eachothers friends who in his case, he said were not good friends to him anyway....crazy. Ohh what a funny boy but how ironic.

SOOOOOO it's down to Two. Adam or Kris? Ok Obviously Adam has the better voice and more sex appeal butt Kris lately is starting to step up to par with Adam with his rendition of heartless that really makes me want to lick him. 

yes thats right, lick him.

On those gorgeous lips ahhhh

Gossip Girl was AMAZIng last week. If Chuck and Blair don't get together by the end of this season I might actually curl up and cry. 

Actually Change my mind I want Chuck so badly now. It's not like he's your regular hottie but he's so mysterious and bad and has way to much sex-appeal for the camera that I just must have him!

Note to self: Get a friggin gig somewhere Chucks going to be so I can dazzle him and hopefully win him over with my wit and charm. Ha. 

What elseee hmmm ...Zac Efron is yummy.

Been working alot lately and got i nice big fat 700 dollar check. Suck on that.

Alright so I decided every time I buy something new I'm gonna throw something out..just so my room doesn't get anymore crowded then it already is. And with my new cash I am gonna go buy those beautiful teal tennis shoes I've been eyeing for way to long! hehe

xoxoxoxox

GGGGGG jokes.

No time to write I have Practice and Inventory today but watch this.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=K-n5SHi4OdA&refsrc=mtv_ca_doop

This guys speaks EXACTLY like the self-centered, manipulative, arrogant Voldermort I know.

xoxox

Melissa <3

Butterfly fly away <3

Goood MORNINGG fellow bloggers! Happy easter...well belated now but whateves it's only one day off :P.  So I start my first Official day of work at Club monaco today!!!!!! SOOO EXCITED!! I got to pick out my free outfit last week and the total cost came to 300 dollars!!!!!!!!! I already love working there!!!!! The clothes are to die for LITERALLY. There extremely expensive but considering the designer is RALPH LAUREN it's understandable and well worth your money. My position there is a 'stylist' which is AMAZING because that is exactly one of the many things I want to be in the near future and now I've practically got my foot in the door in terms of experience in stylizing.  :)

I also have my big fat midterm for math this week that I'm totally not excited for which means when I'm not working at Club Mon I will be studying. Joy.

BUT, after my midterm on Thursday I got my lovely trip to Mexico on Friday to look forward to! HEHEHEHE I can't wait. Beach, hot sun, white sand, ocean, massage's, shopping, parties...and the list goes on and on. AHhhhhhhhhhhh the life.

Anyways just thought I'd update you on what I'm up to since I haven't really written a blog in a while. 

OHHHH I saw the Hannah Montanna Movie on Friday...and honestly I wasn't expecting much but it was soo good! My friends and I cryed haha and so did my mommy when we saw it again together. It has such a good lesson that even I have learned in the last while dealing with a lot of crazyness. It's that you might have a whole other world to deal with and find yourself slipping away from who you really are, but if you put your faith in your family and remember all the people who truly love and care for you, then you will find home again and find your self again. 

I haven't stopped singing and dancing in my room for months now and I truly feel that I've found myself again and it really is all thanks to my family and close friends. They have helped me remember how strong I really am and help me remember what my heart truly loves. 

So I definitely give it a 10 and for those of you that want to be inspired and love to sing, I suggest you go see it! 

Lot's of love,

xoxox Melissa <3

The Climb

I can almost see it

That dream I'm dreaming but

There's a voice in side my head saying

"You'll never reach it"

Every step I'm taking

Every move I make feels

Lost with no direction, My faith is shaking

But I gotta keep trying

gotta keep my head held high

There's always gonna be another mountain

I'm always gonna wanna make it move

Always gonna be an uphill battle

Sometimes your gonna have to loose

Ain't about how fast I get there

Ain't about what's waitin on the other side

It's the climb

The struggles I'm facing 

The chances I'm taking

Sometimes might knock me down but,

No I'm not breaking

I may not know it

But these are the moments that,

I'm gonna remember most, yeah

Just gotta keep going

And I, I gotta be strong

Just keep pushing on

Cause There's always gonna be another mountain

I'm always gonna wanna make it move

Always gonna be an uphill battle

Sometimes your gonna have to loose

Ain't about how fast I get there

Ain't about what's waitin on the other side

It's the climb

Watch this. Peed myself. It's so true.

www.youtube.com/watch?v=Hl9VxVmXAxs&feature=PlayList&p=2EA789D35CE98F8A&playnext_from=PL&index=33

A Breath of Fresh Air

SOOO for the last two nights in a row I've had such a terrible time trying to fall asleep and haven't been able to sleep till 6 in the morning Lol. So of course this has been very frustrating because I've been trying to get on a proper schedule but I just cant fall asleep! So during the hours where i just lay in my bed hoping I will think myself to sleep lol I remembered that I did not tell you about my date!

Soooooo on Saturday night I went on a date :) I already decided a while ago that I shouldn't actually go out with anyone for at least a couple of months because of everything that has happened and I should be focusing on myself right now. But I thought ok one date couldn't hurt and I've never actually been on a proper date before where I didn't know the person and so I couldn't help but feel really excited about the idea that I just went with it.

I'm so glad I did. This guy and I don't necessarily have a lot in common but he was just so considerate of my feelings with everything that we did and didn't judge me one bit when I talked, that I couldn't stop smiling the whole night. It was like a breath of fresh air. I imagined being treated like this only in my dreams. I'm a very easy girl to please. Honestly I don't care for you to buy me presents or do things for me to show that you have done a lot. For me, what I appreciate the most is when someone shows me love and is considerate of my feelings and is always their for me in every way possible. And of course where they are coming from, whether they are giving you something because they want to show you that he/she is a nice person or because he/she really is a nice person at heart and wants nothing in return. That is what I care about the most and it's not that I don't appreciate when someone does buy something for me, it's that I appreciate their love and who they are as a person more and if I can see that they aren't doing whatever their doing for attention. 

Hopefully that wasn't too confusing LOL...Ah well it makes sense to me and I think you who I've debated about this topic with, will understand what I'm saying. 

SOOOO book of the week issss My Math book.

Haha I've actually had no time for reading because I've been caught up in Math but I promise I will recommend a book next week.

Song of the week - Climb by Miley Cyrus.

The lyrics of that song have really touched my heart this week and got me through some bad days :)

xoxoxox

Melissa <3

Nobody Puts Baby in a Corner!

Dirty Dancing = Fav musical of mine at the moment! The dancing was SPEctacular and I just adore the girl that played Baby 'Frances' ! She was sooo cute and very pretty! Melissa O'neil who is actually the third Canadian Idol, sang most of the songs in the musical and her voice was just stunning. I was smiling from head to toe throughout the whole show and I'm now planning a day to go back to see it again before it ends lol. So anyone who hasn't yet seen it I suggest you get on it!!

I will have you all know that I was named after the movie dirty dancing! It was one of my mom's favourite movies back in the day and so that's where my middle name Frances comes from (Baby, the main characters' real name is Frances). It's actually quite funny that I'm named after a character who loves to dance when my mom had no clue I would end up loving it too!

ANyways so this has been a verrrrry interesting week. Besides Britney and Dirty Dancing alot of drama went down as usg. I re-united and solved my problems with an old friend of mine and of course 'he who must not be named' who won't just leave everyone who wants to be left alone..alone!! had to put his 2 cents in on the whole situation. LOl the funny thing is, I was so drunk when I saw that of course he called and left another repetitive nasty message ( the usg) that i didn't even bother to listen to it, handed it to my friend and he deleted it for me. LOl Honestly, the kid will never realize when he's wrong and if other people solve their problems it's none of his business! 

That's the thing, I hate people that linger on anger. It use to make me so frustrated because if you come to an agreement with someone and you know you sit down and talk about everything, then it's all over with and in the past. JUST DROP It. How can anyone ever be happy having so much hate towards people?!?! Honestly I do not hate anyone. I think hate is such a terrible word that should only be used in extreme cases like for example I Hate Spicy food lol. I have problems with some people but who doesn't? I hate not solving problems because i dont like being angry and so usually I eventually, with time for some people, talk things out with them and then it's all cool and I don't care anymore. You know a lot of the time I just end up forgiving them anyway and not caring about what happened because it seemed so stupid or it was such a long time ago that it doesn't even matter. If you dwell on things and hold so much anger towards people then you will never be completely happy. I have always felt this way and you know at times looking back i feel sort of foolish for forgiving some people so easily when I knew deep down I was just being taken advantage of at the moment but hey that's their problem and I don't need such horrible people in my life anyway. 

haha so besides the problems with Voldermort :) I did get myself in a very sad sticky situation with an old friend. I wont give the details but I'm completely heartbroken about what to do next. Shirley and I decided I should go to confession lol which you know probabley might make me feel better about this mess I've created for myself. God bless Lynne Spears! She makes me want to be religious so much lol. 

So that happened and I also got really close with this other guy friend that I've recently been hanging out with a lot and I created a situation there too LOL. The funny thing is this was actually all in one day. Haha. Voldermort, heartbroken about friend, and the other guy friend lol. My life has been a roller-coaster this week that's for sure. 

On top of everything I'm really sick too:( I can barely speak my voice has just gone lol nor can I walk because I don't even know what I did to my hips but they kill soo badly! I really need to just curl up with a good book and be swept away to another world.  Perhaps I will finish the Devil Wears Prada...A world I dream of ever so much :)

I'll give you updates on my current situaion very soon haha

xoxoxo

Melissa<3

Ultraviolet

Hello Everyone and anyone that will ever read this! My name is Melissa Eggert but I'm currently trying to find a new name to change my name too lol I've had enough of this name and you know what they say, with a new name comes a new life....hahaha ok i made that up but it makes sense to me though. Think about it, with a new identity no one will know who you are, you can have a fresh start taking everything you've experienced in the past and growing from it without anyone having any knowledge about what you have gone through or anything besides your family and close friends! Ahhh who knows if I actually will but it's definitely something I've wanted to do since like grade 9 lol.

SO ANYWays....Things about me... Well Im 18, currently not in school BUT going to Ryerson University in september 2009!!! :) Which I'm soooo excited about! 

I use to be a very dedicated performer but over the last year and a half I've been all over the place BUt I will have you all know that I have started getting back into it again. It took me a while to discover it but not performing is not healthy for me. It's a part of my soul and what keeps me sane and every so often through the year and a half that I've been in such a rut, I would remember that for a day or two and then I would get caught up with all of life's drama's and forget about what usually keeps me sane and of course i would feel lost. 

An ex-boyfriend had currently said something to me that made me really open my eyes about how i was living my life, he said, "What ever happened to you mel? You've lost all your spirit. Where's the fun happy girl I use to know?" I tell ya that hit me hard. I think I've thought about him saying that to me more then anything else in these last couple of months. 

Actually the truth is when I was with him I was a little unhappy but not as much as I have grown to be. I recently lost two grandmothers earlier that year and I was just slowly losing myself and it got worse as the year continued to go on. 

But you know for once in a year and a half I can honestly say that I've have gotten so much happier lately and not just because I have such a great family and amazing friends but because I've made so many new choices that have bettered my life extremely. I've become active again, I'm writing songs again, I'm reading alot and now I'm starting this blog which i want to not give up on like I have with other hobbies. :P 

So, what it all comes down to is that time heals all wounds and honestly with all the hurt and sadness I've gone through, I can happily say it's all in the past and with all my knowledge now I can now paint my future. I can make choices that are only positive for me and work for who I really am and the person I want to be. I strongly encourage anyone who reads this to, as cheezy as it sounds, follow your heart with whatever you do but make sure your always aware and you do listen to your brain sometimes because love can make you blind...haha I speak from experience trust me!

Anyways I must be off I'm dancing all day tomorrow and i need my beauty sleep :P

xoxoxox

Melissa