Ultraviolet

Hello Everyone and anyone that will ever read this! My name is Melissa Eggert but I'm currently trying to find a new name to change my name too lol I've had enough of this name and you know what they say, with a new name comes a new life....hahaha ok i made that up but it makes sense to me though. Think about it, with a new identity no one will know who you are, you can have a fresh start taking everything you've experienced in the past and growing from it without anyone having any knowledge about what you have gone through or anything besides your family and close friends! Ahhh who knows if I actually will but it's definitely something I've wanted to do since like grade 9 lol.

SO ANYWays....Things about me... Well Im 18, currently not in school BUT going to Ryerson University in september 2009!!! :) Which I'm soooo excited about! 

I use to be a very dedicated performer but over the last year and a half I've been all over the place BUt I will have you all know that I have started getting back into it again. It took me a while to discover it but not performing is not healthy for me. It's a part of my soul and what keeps me sane and every so often through the year and a half that I've been in such a rut, I would remember that for a day or two and then I would get caught up with all of life's drama's and forget about what usually keeps me sane and of course i would feel lost. 

An ex-boyfriend had currently said something to me that made me really open my eyes about how i was living my life, he said, "What ever happened to you mel? You've lost all your spirit. Where's the fun happy girl I use to know?" I tell ya that hit me hard. I think I've thought about him saying that to me more then anything else in these last couple of months. 

Actually the truth is when I was with him I was a little unhappy but not as much as I have grown to be. I recently lost two grandmothers earlier that year and I was just slowly losing myself and it got worse as the year continued to go on. 

But you know for once in a year and a half I can honestly say that I've have gotten so much happier lately and not just because I have such a great family and amazing friends but because I've made so many new choices that have bettered my life extremely. I've become active again, I'm writing songs again, I'm reading alot and now I'm starting this blog which i want to not give up on like I have with other hobbies. :P 

So, what it all comes down to is that time heals all wounds and honestly with all the hurt and sadness I've gone through, I can happily say it's all in the past and with all my knowledge now I can now paint my future. I can make choices that are only positive for me and work for who I really am and the person I want to be. I strongly encourage anyone who reads this to, as cheezy as it sounds, follow your heart with whatever you do but make sure your always aware and you do listen to your brain sometimes because love can make you blind...haha I speak from experience trust me!

Anyways I must be off I'm dancing all day tomorrow and i need my beauty sleep :P

xoxoxox

Melissa