Nobody Puts Baby in a Corner!

Dirty Dancing = Fav musical of mine at the moment! The dancing was SPEctacular and I just adore the girl that played Baby 'Frances' ! She was sooo cute and very pretty! Melissa O'neil who is actually the third Canadian Idol, sang most of the songs in the musical and her voice was just stunning. I was smiling from head to toe throughout the whole show and I'm now planning a day to go back to see it again before it ends lol. So anyone who hasn't yet seen it I suggest you get on it!!

I will have you all know that I was named after the movie dirty dancing! It was one of my mom's favourite movies back in the day and so that's where my middle name Frances comes from (Baby, the main characters' real name is Frances). It's actually quite funny that I'm named after a character who loves to dance when my mom had no clue I would end up loving it too!

ANyways so this has been a verrrrry interesting week. Besides Britney and Dirty Dancing alot of drama went down as usg. I re-united and solved my problems with an old friend of mine and of course 'he who must not be named' who won't just leave everyone who wants to be left alone..alone!! had to put his 2 cents in on the whole situation. LOl the funny thing is, I was so drunk when I saw that of course he called and left another repetitive nasty message ( the usg) that i didn't even bother to listen to it, handed it to my friend and he deleted it for me. LOl Honestly, the kid will never realize when he's wrong and if other people solve their problems it's none of his business! 

That's the thing, I hate people that linger on anger. It use to make me so frustrated because if you come to an agreement with someone and you know you sit down and talk about everything, then it's all over with and in the past. JUST DROP It. How can anyone ever be happy having so much hate towards people?!?! Honestly I do not hate anyone. I think hate is such a terrible word that should only be used in extreme cases like for example I Hate Spicy food lol. I have problems with some people but who doesn't? I hate not solving problems because i dont like being angry and so usually I eventually, with time for some people, talk things out with them and then it's all cool and I don't care anymore. You know a lot of the time I just end up forgiving them anyway and not caring about what happened because it seemed so stupid or it was such a long time ago that it doesn't even matter. If you dwell on things and hold so much anger towards people then you will never be completely happy. I have always felt this way and you know at times looking back i feel sort of foolish for forgiving some people so easily when I knew deep down I was just being taken advantage of at the moment but hey that's their problem and I don't need such horrible people in my life anyway. 

haha so besides the problems with Voldermort :) I did get myself in a very sad sticky situation with an old friend. I wont give the details but I'm completely heartbroken about what to do next. Shirley and I decided I should go to confession lol which you know probabley might make me feel better about this mess I've created for myself. God bless Lynne Spears! She makes me want to be religious so much lol. 

So that happened and I also got really close with this other guy friend that I've recently been hanging out with a lot and I created a situation there too LOL. The funny thing is this was actually all in one day. Haha. Voldermort, heartbroken about friend, and the other guy friend lol. My life has been a roller-coaster this week that's for sure. 

On top of everything I'm really sick too:( I can barely speak my voice has just gone lol nor can I walk because I don't even know what I did to my hips but they kill soo badly! I really need to just curl up with a good book and be swept away to another world.  Perhaps I will finish the Devil Wears Prada...A world I dream of ever so much :)

I'll give you updates on my current situaion very soon haha

xoxoxo

Melissa<3

Ultraviolet

Hello Everyone and anyone that will ever read this! My name is Melissa Eggert but I'm currently trying to find a new name to change my name too lol I've had enough of this name and you know what they say, with a new name comes a new life....hahaha ok i made that up but it makes sense to me though. Think about it, with a new identity no one will know who you are, you can have a fresh start taking everything you've experienced in the past and growing from it without anyone having any knowledge about what you have gone through or anything besides your family and close friends! Ahhh who knows if I actually will but it's definitely something I've wanted to do since like grade 9 lol.

SO ANYWays....Things about me... Well Im 18, currently not in school BUT going to Ryerson University in september 2009!!! :) Which I'm soooo excited about! 

I use to be a very dedicated performer but over the last year and a half I've been all over the place BUt I will have you all know that I have started getting back into it again. It took me a while to discover it but not performing is not healthy for me. It's a part of my soul and what keeps me sane and every so often through the year and a half that I've been in such a rut, I would remember that for a day or two and then I would get caught up with all of life's drama's and forget about what usually keeps me sane and of course i would feel lost. 

An ex-boyfriend had currently said something to me that made me really open my eyes about how i was living my life, he said, "What ever happened to you mel? You've lost all your spirit. Where's the fun happy girl I use to know?" I tell ya that hit me hard. I think I've thought about him saying that to me more then anything else in these last couple of months. 

Actually the truth is when I was with him I was a little unhappy but not as much as I have grown to be. I recently lost two grandmothers earlier that year and I was just slowly losing myself and it got worse as the year continued to go on. 

But you know for once in a year and a half I can honestly say that I've have gotten so much happier lately and not just because I have such a great family and amazing friends but because I've made so many new choices that have bettered my life extremely. I've become active again, I'm writing songs again, I'm reading alot and now I'm starting this blog which i want to not give up on like I have with other hobbies. :P 

So, what it all comes down to is that time heals all wounds and honestly with all the hurt and sadness I've gone through, I can happily say it's all in the past and with all my knowledge now I can now paint my future. I can make choices that are only positive for me and work for who I really am and the person I want to be. I strongly encourage anyone who reads this to, as cheezy as it sounds, follow your heart with whatever you do but make sure your always aware and you do listen to your brain sometimes because love can make you blind...haha I speak from experience trust me!

Anyways I must be off I'm dancing all day tomorrow and i need my beauty sleep :P

xoxoxox

Melissa