Some food for thought

"If a man's mind becomes pure, his surrounding will also become pure" - Buddha

I've been blessed with such great friends in my life it's absolutely unbelievable. I've been blessed with such friends that help me see the good or bad in which others bring to me.
I've never been very patient and as such, I have taken some huge risks in my life out of my unwillingness to wait.
I like to call it one of my greatest assets and liabilities.
So I like to live every moment. I hate waking up at 4 in the afternoon only to realize that I've wasted a whole day.
Just imagine the possibilities of what you could of accomplished during that missed out time. Could be very little or could be life changing, you never know.
But most people don't like to be pushed, obviously and a lot get taken aback by my assertiveness to get exactly what I want at that time.
I guess a lot of people can say I jump into things whole heartedly. I'm extremely passionate with everything I do and the one thing I believe in and only want in life, is love.
I'm not saying just with a partner, I mean with my family and I love to make new friends and offer as much love as I can give, cause lord knows the world needs some more of it these days.
I've made some pretty crappy choices in my day, that I'm not proud of but nor do I regret making them because making them has helped me see who people really are, find out new things about myself and move forward to making more crappy spur of the moment choices that I eventually learn from too lol.

I've also been blessed with the gift of intuition lol. Not psychic abilities but more the fact that I can meet someone right off the bat and know if they have good intentions or bad; If they will help move me forward or walk me in the wrong direction. I've never been wrong to this day.
The annoying part is the temptation. Fighting against the thrill of people that might eventually bring me down. Trusting myself that they are not good for me and keeping myself from them or from thinking I could change their intentions.
My life is one adventurous movie if I do say so myself lol.
The tricky part now is knowing that I'm aware of such people and knowing that I'm aware that even with such temptation and anticipation at the time, those people will only lead me in the wrong direction, how do I motivate myself to completely avoid what I know is bad?
Some of that bad has led me to unthinkable possibilities, and some has led me to spending weeks lying in bed feeling sorry for myself.

This is when I go back to saying how blessed I am for the friends I have. 2 of them in fact are the ones that understand me the most and can really say every word out of my thoughts without me having to open my mouth once. Without them I might be still trapped in my own thoughts wondering if what has happened to me is actually real or if how I interpret things actually make sense.

I know my thoughts are scattered but who ever said I needed to make a point in my own journal?

I know me. My family knows me. My 2 soul sisters know me. I will continue to love whoever lets me love them. You can judge me all I want even being some of my oldest friends, as old doesn't mean best. Doesn't mean you understand my soul or have even tryed to understand how I see things or the reasons I do what I do. Only then will you be a pure friend and learn to let the judgements go. Only then will you be the best.

So, how do you really wash away all the Voldermorts and Cruella Devills in your life?
Is it wrong to keep them in hopes that they will learn how to love? Or do u Avada Kadavra them in case they decide to make fur coats out of your puppies?
hahaha

What will save u and your puppies in the end really?

xo