And the cycle continues...
When will I ever learn my lesson?
Just realized tonight that I date guys who don't take any interest in me. Sound familiar dad?
Gees...the older I get the more I realize how big of an impact your childhood has on the rest of your life.
My dad never seemed to take any interest in any of my hobbies, skills or interests. I was always and I am still always trying to take an interest in his hobbies...still listening to what he likes and never is it ever returned.
Actually that's a lie...it's returned when I pull away.
What's interesting though is that he does the same with the women he dates...he caters to them and takes an interest in them and his problem in the past is that they don't seem to want to do what he likes. How interesting that what he wants, is exactly what he's not giving me.
Anyways I need to get to the bottom of this because I no longer want to attract anyone that doesn't take an interest in me.
What is the core belief here that my father taught me?
'I am not interesting. Men don't care about what I like. '
I need to change this to " I am fucking cool. Men love to be around me and I attract men that take an interest in my hobbies. I attract men that know a ton about me...I attract men that are genuinely interested in me as a whole.
Is it possible to change someone's behavior towards you? Or if they didn't fully creep you before, does it then mean they never really took a proper interest in you?
I need to sleep on this.
Till tomorrow xo
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